it's pretty late

i just finished editing my world lit. 1 paper. and my trig homework :/ it's been a long night already, and i'm dreading school tomorrow or today...?

well i saw graz and it was really nice. i miss that little italian man :]

well, this is short and sweet, i just thought i'd say that my day was pretty ok.
just sort of slow, and boring but nothing bad happened. lol k night. :]

the sunny side of the truth

In 2006, over 5 million people around the world died from tobacco products.
this fact speaks for itself... that's an awful lot of people.
Cigarettes kill over 50 people an hour
who knows who those people could be? but again, a large number of people
Tobacco kills over 20 times more people than murder
it's funny that the tobacco companies don't get put in jail even though their statistics of killing people are higher than anybody else's in the world.
In just one year, cigarettes leave about 31,000 kids fatherless.
isn't that sad? imagine having to see your friends smoke if you were one of those children.
About one third of youth smokers will eventually die from a tobacco-related disease.
that means about 2 or 3 of my friends will die while we are only about halfway through with our lives.
Cigarettes and other smoking materials are the number one cause of fire deaths in the U.S
are you responsible? because in most cases of my friends hanging out, we're pretty careless. i know i'd be miserable if i was the cause of a fire. especially if it killed someone else.
Each year, only about 5% of smokers succeed in quitting long-term. That's just 5 people out of every hundred.
that means 95 out of 100 continue smoking. and you know, i just don't think that you could really quit if you just wanted to.
On their websites, tobacco companies encourage people to quit smoking. However, in 2006, a court found that tobacco companies manipulate nicotine levels to keep smokers addicted
i thought this was pretty interesting...
22.3% of high school students smoke.
but you already knew that...
and the fact that's most near to my heart... my grandmother died in her 60's because she smoked for the majority of her life. her lungs were failing, and her body wasn't well. she was on oxygen, and couldn't walk far before having to stop and sit to rest. she was in pain, and wasn't happy because of her immobility.
i loved my grandmother very much. she was a role model for me. she was very outgoing and was around for me more than any other adult when i was young. she would wake up in the morning's and make me a big breakfast, and go downstairs to watch me and my friends play. the whole neighborhood called her grandma sally. she was very get-up-and-go. in her last few years, she lived in an old folks home, not able to cook her meals or clean a house, in her last few months she made many hospital visits, was pushed around in a wheelchair with her oxygen tank and stuffed tiger. in her last days, she couldn't smile much, and couldn't speak much, she was very tired and in a lot of pain. i didn't know she was going the night she did. but i'll never forget it. i saw her after she passed, and that image will forever be engraved in my mind. because she wasn't the same beautiful woman she was while i was growing up. i loved my grandmother, and i still do. i hate that i'll always look out into an audience and not see her there. when i graduate, if i marry, any birthday. anything. and it breaks my heart because if she hadn't of smoked, she would still be alive and well.

look, you're mad at me for being mad about this. but you know what? i'm sorry i'm not OK with this, and just because you were "honest with me" about it, doesn't make it right. i don't care who buys them for you, or why you do it, or who else does it. the reason i care so much, is because i care about you. and i don't care if i'm "lame" for getting so upset, or for getting mad at you, or anything. that's whoever's problem. but, i love you and i really mean it when i say i want you to be my kid's uncle, and i want to be your friend when i'm old and frail. and i don't really pay any attention to your justifications or anyone else's on this subject. I had to go through this, and everyday i have to remember that smoking took away one of the most caring, adventurous, kind, and loving women that i've ever know. i love you.